This year (2008 ) I hit rock bottom. Now I am ready to finally kick start my life and get back in the swing of things.

I am going to share my struggles with addiction, mental and physical challenges, and experiences being homeless. I hope that someday I will achieve my dreams.

First, a bit about me. When I say I hit rock bottom I mean that. I lost everything I had going for me, and I can’t blame anybody else because it was my own dang fault!

My Children (who are 5, 3 and 4 months) are all either adopted out or living with other family members. I spent a good part of 2008 in jail for possession of meth, intent to sell and child endangerment. The chances of me getting any of my kids back is slim to none.

I have broken ties with both sets of my parents. Adoptive and biological. Both got sick of trying to rescue someone that just plain wasn’t ready to be rescued. Now, I wish I hadn’t pushed them away. I want so badly just to tell them I love them, I’m sorry and They were right and I was wrong.

I am now away from all my bad influences,trying to rebulid my life. I am living in a women’s shelter,attending meetings,taking classes online to finish my degree,managing my medications properly, and discovering the faith I though I had lost.

I hope someone reading this blog is helped through my struggles. But if not, at least I’m hoping to help keep myself on the right track.