Open letter to my daughter

Dear Miss Yahira, AKA raisin stuffer,goober,munchkin

Some day I hope you read a copy of this.

I know that right now things are really confusing. You are not living in the home you always have. You are not with the same people. I am not there all the time, and don’t answer every cry. Another woman does that now. Let me tell you that woman is your mother now. You will see me less and less. After a while you may not see me regularly at all. But I will always think of you and wish we were together.

I hope you know how much I Love you and have always loved you. Love was never the issue. You never did anything wrong. I just was not able to keep you. I could barely take care of myself. I had no place to stay, couldn’t walk most of the time, and was ready for a breakdown. You deserve better than that.

. You need to be with you’re new parents and have a better life. Take advantage of everything they offer you. Don’t worry that you hurt me when you call the other woman “mommy”. She is now. It doesn’t hurt me.Its okay to get attached to your new parents,brother sisters and pets. Its okay to trust them to chase away the toilet monsters.

But I will be availible if you want to see me. At least for a little while. And your new parents will always have a way to call me.

I will miss you, munchkin.I’ll miss everything about you. I’ll miss holding you and rocking you to sleep every night. I’ll even miss getting the raisins out of your nose. (Silly girl). I’ll miss your smile and your hugs,too.

I’ll always love you, babygirl,
~your Mama